Another Wasted Day
by Gary Sackett
Another wasted day, hour, minute, second.
What I’ve been doing is putting myself around people, places and things that exude lifting power, much like oxy-clean. Reading posts, articles, books about positive things. Tuning out all the chatter from the news, drama from the TV, and those who choose to live in it.
As I have, the world has opened up, the B.S.(not bachelor of science) that I thought was important, faded away. The important matters came back, priorities switched and those hidden talents held in the recesses of my mind, came a ‘gushin’ out. My writing sprung forth, coming out of me like a busted water main, a craving, much like an addiction is formed, yet in a positive way. I love doing it, excited to see my words flow onto the page. How do you do this? Two words for now…committed intentions.
Our anger was for not or was it, a speed bump in recognizing your authentic self. If I, did, should, could, I,…I,….I….I,… Screaming STOP! Instead of “wow, I should of had a V-8”, it was ‘dagnabit’, why didn’t I read her post earlier.
“This is the reality we live: aspiring to be at our best, longing for and sometimes finding meaning and connection within ourselves and with that which is larger than ourselves, we are undone by messy bathrooms, traffic jams and burnt toast. I am not interested in a spirituality that cannot encompass my humanness. I find little comfort or guidance in traditional dogma or unqualified new age optimism. Because beneath the small daily trials are harder paradoxes, things the mind cannot reconcile but the heart must hold if we are to live fully: profound tiredness and radical hope; shattered beliefs and relentless faith; the seemingly contradictory longings for personal freedom and a deep commitment to others, for solitude and intimacy, for the ability to simply be with the world and the need to change what we know is not right about how we are living.”
~Oriah Mountain Dreamer from THE INVITATION
It’s amazing if we sit back and do what we do all the time, for one, BREATHE and then TAKE TIME for ourselves to be QUIET. Easy, right? We do one of these all of all the time, involuntarily though. How about consciously! What about the others, ‘taking time’. Well there lays one of the fundamental fallacies that we believe, “I can’t take time….work, kids, other family” etc. etc. etc. Ok, of your day do you shower, do you get dressed, do you drive to work? What time do you have? Have you looked at how you spend your the time during the day? How much TV? And the most important question here, are you important enough for “your” time?
Now to being quiet, sure you can sit by yourself at lunch or anywhere at anytime but are you quiet? All those thoughts through your beedy little head, “I gotta do this and this and this, he did she did, this time that time!” Garbley gook central. What if you could quiet the mind just for a bit, 10, 20, 30 seconds, then a minute, 5 minutes, 10 minutes and longer. Guess what? YOU CAN! What got me going was a variety of Dr. Wayne Dyer’s books and Panache Desai’s videos and classes and then came across David Nichtern’s Buddhist method via ‘Creative-live’, http://www.creativelive.com. There are many different teachers to learn different techniques. There’s bound to be at least one that resonates with you.
It comes down to again, two words “committed intentions.”
Now we get into excuses, stories which all come from fear of change. Fear of anything is an crippling emotion if not understood. Fear in this context, with changing, is, in my opinion, just a block to something better. Whether starting or stopping something, it’s change and the Mr. EGO in our head is just trying to protect us, so he says!?
“One cultivates spaciousness or awareness which allows you to acknowledge the emotions and see them as part of the human condition. Emotions are like subtle thought forms and they all arise in response to something outside yourself. They are all reactions. You cultivate a quietness in yourself that watches these emotions rising and falling and passing away.” ~ Ram Dass
RamDass.org ‘Anger & Fear’ talk.
Panache Desai describes his thoughts with emotions as being just part of the human incarnation. Instead of fighting and withholding our emotions, embrace all of them. Yes all of them. “ Accept, Allow and Receive” is his mantra, which, when incorporating into my life, has allowed me to become a better man. Releasing the hurt, pain and suffering from my past. Most of it from childhood, things that we had no control over. Deep scars, that if left, fester and pop up with anger or set you into a state of depression.
Is this work easy, hell no. Can you do it, Hell YES, with…’committed intention.’
We all have stories, some better, some worse. Do we re-live these stories over and over? How do we react when we have walls and fences in front of us?
We all make the excuses and that within itself is tiring. Be tired following your passion, sleeping with a smile on your face.
Are you your story? Will you be a block or brick in the wall? Or will you be a fencepost?
It comes down to your choice, what life do you want to live in your limited time on this earth?